Ive been with my fiance for almost 4 years. i have a really bad temperament when i get mad or upset, i tend to hit him and say really hurtful stuff but at the en di never want to leave him and i go crazy if he says he’s going to leave. he broke up with me on december while i was in vacation for a month, it really hurted like no other thing, i thought he stabbed me in the back. he said he slept with someone else, but he said that once he was with the girl he actully quit and stopped becuase he was thinking about me.after we got back i promised him i was going to change, however i never forgive him for what he did, it really hurts me, he moved in with me and almost pays for everything. but im still so resentful i always bring it up cus im so angry at him, i thought he loved me and i don get how he couldve been with someone else. today i was going to move out, i freaked out, and he said that it was okay for me to leave. whcih really hurted me, cus he didnt even try to hold me back. however after that i regret what i said and told him that i was sorry when i wanted him to say sorry and hole me back. should i forgive him and start new or should i move out and never speak to him again?
I’ve Been Hiding My Depression Since I Was 14, I’m A 17 Year Old Male But This Is Even Worse Than I Thought…?
I’m 17 year old male in my final yr of high school going onto. I’ve been so depressed. Sure I act nice, and a complete angel to my friends and family and my mother (who has no idea what I’m going through since I’ve been hiding this). I know I’ve had depression for 3+ years. All the signs are there, and so. I always feel helpless and lost.
I KNOW admitting is the “first step” but I always stop right here. I’m just not comfortable with sharing my thoughts, emotions, and feelings. What I write in my journal is basically how I feel but I would never show that to a therapist or anyone else. They’ll immediately overdose me with medication pills or send me to a mental insituation which I don’t want.
Everything I seem to do is wrong. I fail all types of sports. I fail at bringing joy to myself, my friends, my family, and my mother. I’m not worthy of this place. Everything I have I wish I can just give all of my clothes, my toys, my video games, my entire life to another person who desperately out there needs food, clothes, and family. I’m not fit for this place. I’m weak. I see all those people out there and I know I’m selfish and self centered. I would love to give everything that I have to those poor people and leave myself out in the cold and lie down to die for eternity. I’m not deserving of anything.
No love, no ambitions, no happiness….just sadness, anger…
I don’t want help. I don’t understand why I don’t as I know this is extremely dangerous and I’ve been suicidal for the past 3 years. But I just never want to express my emotions, and feelings. I don’t want help from anyone. I just don’t. I never opened up and never will. It’s the type of person who I am. I really do hope this is a phase going by but I don’t think so. I’m going to college next year and I’m so lost. I have terrible grades (D’s and F’s), I fail a lot of classes, school just is so uninterested anymore.I just sleep, and I’m lazy.
I’m so lost. I don’t even have a job or a car yet.
I’m so pathetic it’s embarassing. This takes the take on the biggest patheticness of all time:
Me falling in love with a girl online the last 2 years. What was I thinking? I knew that wasn’t going to work out. Sure enough the long distance failed miserably. I really did fall in love with her. We texted, we webcammed, we talked on the phone every single day. It made me feel I was right next to her. I even met her and the meeting was awkward at first but went well later on the night.
She has a boyfriend though so truly there is really no point in me trying to go for her again or even talk to her seeing how girls at this age believe her boyfriend’s the most important thing in her life.
Especially since she hasn’t spoken to me in weeks. She’s past on and I’ll never move from it. I stay in the past forever. I continue to think about good thoughts that’ll never happen in my fantasy world.
I’ve never experienced irl love in my entire life. Never had a reality girlfriend. Just online. Doesn’t count. I’m a failure, low self esteem that will never change, get teased by my friends all the time. No one and nobody ever takes me serious.
I’m just nothing….
I almost forgot. I’m a patheological liar. I lie to my cousin about getting girls as he looks up to me since we were young so I make up all these stories how I lost my virginty and tips in getting girls. I lie to everyone about everything. I manipulate others and….it’s just….
What If My Girlfriend Dumped Me Because She Thinks All I Do Is Play Paintball?
stop playing paintball so much! show her that thats not all your good for! maybe instead you can just do paintball once a week and let her know that because you like her so much that your willing to be with her and painball less! let her know that you love her and that she means so much and that shes worth it! i really hope it works out for you two! best of luck to you both! 
I Feel Really High, But I Haven’t Taken Any Drug In Over 3 Years?
It all started when I decided to stay up for 24 hours to reset my schedule. I knew I shouldn’t have done this because it makes it really hard to sleep the next night due to anxiety levels being high after staying up too long for some reason.
I was so anxious the next night that I couldn’t sleep. Then the anxiety came to a peak. The next night I had broken sleep though I’m not 100% that I was actually asleep. I didn’t feel tired at all the next day.
By the next night I started doing things to relax myself to make it easier to sleep and I took melatonin. It was still a rough night trying to sleep.
I got really depressed and felt there was no meaning to anything the next day. I felt suicidal almost but I convinced myself not to think this way and to try to be happy. I started to laugh at myself almost uncontrollably.
That night I slept maybe 3 hours broken, but I had dreams so I think I really did sleep.
The next day I felt low again and decided to run to get out anxiety and such. I ran 8 miles. I had a harder time sleeping that night but I felt good.
This morning I have felt extremely elated. My whole body feels like I’ve taken some sort of drug. My mind is moving rapidly. I can’t explain everything but I feel euphoric. I’m afraid because I just want to be normal again.
Has anyone else out there experienced this?
Are Most Extremist Atheists Just Angry Ex Christians Sad Because God Isn’t Really A Magical Sky Genie?
I mean, we wanted Him out of our lives, we do a lot of sick messed up crap as humans, I’m surprised He hasn’t ended us already.
Every Time I Am In A Tight Stress-full Place,i Really Freak Out! I Don’t Know How To A Dress This,i Dont Know?
for three years i never dealt with my issues i lived by my self.. I have been married for five months now and well every really stress full situation i freak out (i cry,panic,scream/fight,im scared,extremly depressed, anxious,lack of impulse control) but i do have emotional flash backs, now i never went to the doctor about this because have no idea what it is. i love my husband and i want kids but if i cant kick this my life will be lonely.. how do i help my self so i can enjoy others around me?
People Who Claim Snowstorms Disprove Global Warming Don’t Understand The Difference Between Climate & Weather?
Isn’t that what all the angry little Al Gore acolytes sneer at us every time people joke about shoveling a couple of feet of Global Warming out of their driveways?
Does the same hold true when it’s the official UN Global Warming Chicken-Little-in-Chief who makes the same sort of claim in reverse?http://news.yahoo.com/s/afp/20100902/ts_…
I Have A Dell Gx270…?
I have a Dell GX270 and the harddrive NEEDS to be replaced desperately. I was wondering if any new harddrive will do or do I need a specific one? HELP! Thanks.
Would You Know What To Do If Your Child Was Choking?
This is my biggest fear. He’s 22 months old and I still cut everything he eats into tiny, little bitty pieces and watch him as he eats. If he ever coughs or makes the slightest noise while eating I panic. I really don’t know if i’d know what to do if he really ever choked…Ive had to slap his back one time and that worked, but what if that didn’t? Would 911 make it to the house in enough time? Would you know what to do?
So I Decided To Tell My Dad..?
that i like this girl. i told him shes relgious and our type of muslim (sunni) and follows the 5 pillars of islam. i told him because islam says when you like someone, tell your adults and i did so. now heres the problem, he doesnt have anything against her religious wise, he has a problem with her being pakistani.. because were indian and pakistani and indians have been fighting for 60 years. i told him why take marriage to race? he said that when the whites beat you in canada one day, you will have to go back to india. SIDE NOTE: pakistanis arent allowed to be in india and indians arent allowed to be in pakistan. so he i told him that its wrong for him to say that and he said this is how the world is. then i just said okay and was really upset just sitting there at juma prayer listening to the speech. he saw my upset face and said, you can marry her, but you will have to face the concequences that will happen with you. i told him im ready to face anything to be with her and he was then saying your too young, right now your thinking shes the one but later on you will think how stupid you were on thinking shes the one. he even made fun of pakistanis saying everyone hates them and their culture is ’stupid’ i told him to stop being racist and he said okay. he doesnt want me to marry her but he will let me marry her. i only told him and not my mom because my mom will take this the wrong way. advise please?
jazakallah khair, salaam
