I’m a gay man. I’ve known I was gay since I was around 14 years old, and I’ve identified as a gay man since. I’m pretty comfortable with my identity, and enjoy being gay and living the life that I lead.
However, when I was a kid, I frequently used to think things like, “I wish I had been born a girl.” I don’t recall ever thinking things like, “I AM a girl.” My suspicion is that I wanted to be a girl when I was a kid because I had a lot of feminine interests as a kid (knitting/crochet, hated sports, played with Barbies with my sister, whatever). I’m wondering if these thoughts were expressions of my “true” identity, or if they were products of having my interests rejected by others.
I haven’t really had thoughts like that since I was in elementary school, and I’ve always been pretty happy with who I am. Then, I watched RuPaul’s Drag Race, and Sonique came out as being transgender. For some reason, that stuck in my head, and now I’ve had to deal with anxiety about being transgender since watching that episode.
I’m a makeup artist as my profession, working for a beauty store called Ulta. I wear makeup, I style my hair feminine sometimes. Outside of work, I don’t necessarily wear makeup. Usually, I’ll wear it if I go out. I don’t dress like a woman, nor do I really desire to do so. But I kind of find myself curious about what it’d be like to be a woman. Is it innocent curiosity, or delving into something deeper?
This issue has been plaguing me for months, and I’m tired of feeling anxious. Yet whenever I think of being transgender, everything in me says, “NO! Resist it! Fight it! You’re not transgender!”
Am I anxious, or in a gender crisis? Am I fighting my “true self,” or fighting my own mind?
I’ve also experimented viewing different forms of pornography to see which elicits a response from me, and heterosexual (and even transgender) porn does nothing for me, while gay porn turns me on.
Please help me figure out if I just make things up to worry about (which wouldn’t be the first time), or if I’m really a woman and just refuse to accept it.
Am I Transgender, Or Do I Just Have Crazy Anxiety?
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Honestly, you just sound like a gender-confused gay man.
Playing with dolls, disliking sports, and doing other related things as a child are very common signs of gay men. Not all gay men, but a lot of gay men. So those thinds are nothing you should be worried about. and in no way suggest that you are a woman.
There are also a lot of gay men that wonder what it would be like to be a woman. Just as some gay women wonder what it would be like to be a man. Hell, even some straight men have wondered. It’s most likely innocent curiosity. Can you picture yourself being a woman? Would you ever really do it? Have you ever honestly wished you were born a woman? Do you now?
(Whoa…I didn’t even know they had transgender porn…Okay, putting that aside…)
Don’t confuse gender identity and sexual orientation. They are very different. The fact that you were only turned on by gay porn, however, simply further enforces that your are, in fact, a gay man.
You said yourself that you are happy with who you are, and with your life. I believe that you are just getting a bit paranoid, because you saw that show. It may go away after a while, but I would suggest perhaps seeing a therapist. None of us here can tell you for sure, but a therapist could help you sort this out and find out for yourself whether or not you are truly a woman.
I think you’re most likely not transgender, simply curious. I’m bisexual, I’ve wanted to be a guy sometimes. But eventually, I realized that I was happy with who I am.
Good luck <3
Lot of things wrong here.
You said: “I’m a gay man. I’ve known I was gay since I was around 14 years old, and I’ve identified as a gay man since. I’m pretty comfortable with my identity, and enjoy being gay and living the life that I lead.”
After reading your details you sound like, surprise, a gay man.
You said: “This issue has been plaguing me for months, and I’m tired of feeling anxious. Yet whenever I think of being transgender, everything in me says, “NO! Resist it! Fight it! You’re not transgender!”"
Transgender? :shakes head: How about replacing that with “woman”. How do you feel about being female? If this has been bothering you for months, maybe it’s time to speak with a GENDER therapist?
You said: “I’ve also experimented viewing different forms of pornography to see which elicits a response from me, and heterosexual (and even transgender) porn does nothing for me, while gay porn turns me on.”
Don’t confuse gender identity and sexual orientation, they are separate issues.
My gut feeling is that you’re a confused gay man. But my opinion really doesn’t matter. What does matter is what YOU think. I do believe that a therapist can help you sort this out. If it’s been months already, you’re probably not going to find a resolution to this on your own. So if you’re serious see someone ASAP.
Most mammals have one pair of sex chromosomes in each cell. Males have one Y chromosome and one X chromosome, while females have two X chromosomes. In mammals, the Y chromosome contains a gene, SRY, which triggers embryonic development as a male. The Y chromosomes of humans and other mammals also contain other genes needed for normal sperm production.
There are exceptions, however. For example, the platypus relies on an XY sex-determination system based on five pairs of chromosomes. Platypus sex chromosomes in fact appear to bear a much stronger homology (similarity) with the avian Z chromosome, and the SRY gene so central to sex-determination in most other mammals is apparently not involved in platypus sex-determination[. Among humans, some men have two Xs and a Y (“XXY”, see Klinefelter’s syndrome), or one X and two Ys (see XYY syndrome), and some women have three Xs or a single X instead of a double X (“X0″, see Turner syndrome). There are other exceptions in which SRY is damaged (leading to an XY female), or copied to the X (leading to an XX male). For related phenomena see Androgen insensitivity syndrome and Intersex.
Well, hoping my sexual knowledge is good: wouldn’t you have to get a sex change operation to be a transgender? IE. one between “gender”s, which makes the “trans”ition?
If you say you’re a gay man, the you’re nothing but a gay man, I suppose. Try at least to look like a woman and do some silicon implants, too, and then you’ll be a transgender.