1. Colleague caught me a number of times staring into space.
2. She asked me a few times why I was ‘laughing’. I told her I wasn’t laughing, I was smiling. Was smiling at random thoughts in my head. She said it was ‘disturbing’.
3. Was feeling very confused
4. Lacked concentration and was unable to focus, was making mistakes on easy tasks at work.
5. Was writing to colleague at work and it got out of control I couldn’t stop writing. was jumping from one topic to the next, thoughts were racing. I could not stop writing almost a 24/7 thing except for when I was at work.
6. Was snapping at family a lot.
7. Horoscopes I was reading felt like they were coming to life.
8. TV program appeared to be repeating the events of my day.
9. Felt as though I could morph into another person and experience their moods and symptoms (even the people on tv).
10. Felt like I had mind-reading abilities. For instance I was just thinking about a certain type of food and my mum brought it for me minutes later without me asking for it.
11. Was noticing more coincidences like these.
12. Not usually a spiritual person.
13. Felt mentally agitated and restless and was going to the toilet hundreds of times a day.
14. Didn’t have this problem at home, only at work.
15. Went to bed at around 10pm and woke up at around 3:30am to 4:00am.
16. Often skipped lunch. Ate very little.
17. Was reading into things too much.
18. Difficulty in verbally stringing sentences together, muddled, incoherent speech, so I needed to keep answers short.
19. Difficulty expressing my emotions.
20. Names, colours and numbers all seemed to take on meaning.
21. Felt that I was being watched
22. that my colleagues were plotting against me to remove me from my job.
23. Started to believe that I had done something wrong and that the police were after me.
24. That my computer at home was being monitored closely because I couldn’t delete my internet history.
My doctor suspects either one of those. A proper psychiatrist. Another told me its psychotic depression.



I would hesitate to guess which diagnosis is more appropriate but I can tell you the difference between them.
A schizoaffective disorder is where someone meets the criteria for Schizophrenia AND a mood disorder (such as depression, mania or mixed episodes NB: the clinical definitions not just a depressed mood).
Schizophrenia is where there are persistant delusions, hallucinations, disorganised behaviour and negative affect (ie flattened emotional response). There are other criteria as well however they are the primary.
Major Depressive Episode mood-incongruent psychotic features is essentially depression coupled with delusions/hallucinations not related to depression/punishment/nihilism etc such as persecution.
I major factor here in distinguishing between them is the extent and severity of the delusions as well as the time that this has been occuring for.
Either way, dont stress too much! There is a lot of treatment options and some good success’, find a therapist that you can trust and feel that they really know what they are doing and stick with it.
Hope it helps.
to be truly mad you have to be unaware of it. i really like your writing style though, maybe in the wrong job and time to move out of home?
Sound more like schizophrenia.
You do not sound schizophrenic at all.
You sound psychotic depression..and maybe a little OCD
psychotic depression.