From the list of symptoms I’ve read on the Internet, I think I may well have Borderline Personality Disorder. My moods fluctuate VERY wildly, and for very little reason – any small thing can be a trigger. Also, I get angry easily (crowds anger me most). Rather than go in depth listing my symptoms, I just want to know if this could be a cause of it.
Up until I was 15, I was very, very attached to my mother. In fact I was in a ‘bubble’ and didn’t really go out, and relied on her for everything. When I was 15 she died of cancer, which until the last week when she was ill was hid from me. I hardly reacted at all to the event which was a big shock to all my family, even though I was distraught – my emotions just wouldn’t come out. Since then, I became a much different person. I seemed to completely change – I basically thought I had no future before – due to childhood issues I didn’t even attend secondary school. But before I knew it, I had a diploma from college and a 2:1 degree from University.
But, something has been wrong the last couple of years, and it’s been slowly worsening. I’m now 21, and I have all the symptoms of BPD and it’s wrecking my life. I just want to know if that was a cause, to maybe help me understand it better. I plan on seeing my GP soon who will hopefully refer me to a mental health expert.
Thanks



Having studied attachment and attachment disorders I do believe there is a strong link between attachments we form as infants, loss and BPD.
Have you tried counselling? Most people could think of nothing worse than losing their mother and it must, without doubt, be the hardest thing a human has to go through and I am terribly sorry for your loss.