everytime im in a relationship, i feel like pushing them away, and not wanting to get any closer to them. Like i don’t even want to tell my friends or family that im seing anyone. and when im not seing anyone i’d feel sad and want a bf, but when i have one i push them away.



It’s called “self sabotage”. Usually people that do this feel on some core levels that they are “unworthy” or “undeserving” of something or someone good. So the sabotage it, before anything good can happen. You need to figure out why you do this, and also what do you want more of: Loneliness, or someone to be with. Whichever one you want more, well that’s the one that will win. Good luck.